i'm just a girl who loves music more than anything.
and peace, happiness, rain, thunder and lightening, jumping into ice cold water, daydreaming, sleep, having sexy dreams, sexy older men, sexy men in general, tough macho men, men who wear eyeliner and kiss eachother, eating big, juicy pickles, being in lust, not love, bruises (they're pretty!), bloody romance, vampires, scary movies, driving and singing, writing, reading, my ipod, txting, iced coffee, cherries, candy, ice cream, halloween, black eyeliner, black nail polish (blood red & neon green too), pink hair dye, tequila, vodka, sunflowers and daisies, the smell of fresh cut grass and rain in the city and honeysuckle, full moons and starry nights, creepy stuffed animals, skulls, my bed, my salt water aquarium, sharks and eels, fish and reptiles, and bats!
I HAVE A MORAY EEL NAMED DANZIG! HE'S TOTALLY COOL AND BADASS! JUST LIKE THE REAL DUDE!
i'm not okay...but that's okay...i think...
i laugh at inappropriate times...i cry at inconvenient times...i can be moody but i try not to let it show...i am always smiling and usually giggly, so people tend to think i'm dumb until they get to know me...but i'm not, i'm just silly! people always think i'm weird, but very nice...i was recently told that i don't have a mean bone in my body...but i just call it being a wimp, or a pushover, or a doormat LOL...i'm kind of a loner, i like spending time by myself...but i like everyone unless they don't like people who are different, then they can fuck off...i love listening to loud music and driving fast (never got a speeding ticket...fingers crossed!) i am soooo bored i could cut my fucking wrists...but i won't...people at work call me punk marilyn (monroe) or happy emo...
i am a dumb blonde intellectual
life sucks but i am positive and happy (well mostly...i try)
i am a perfectionist at heart but i give up before i can get anything really perfect
i don't believe in god but i do believe in ghosts
i love contradictions- how boring would life be if everything made sense?

i want to run away from everything...my home, my bf, my family, my job, everything...just throw some jeans and tshirts and all my cds and my ipod in my car...i just don't want anymore responsibility...being an adult really sucks sometimes...take all my money (not that THAT would get me far) and just DRIVE...til i don't feel like driving anymore...or i can't afford to fill my gas tank anymore...whichever comes first...i don't care where i end up, as long as it's not HERE and no one knows me...

i really admire and respect gerard way and all of mcr for all of their intelligence and thoughtfulness. gerard is the first person who ever made me realize that it's okay to be not okay. and this band is so much more than just another band, they have made their fans feel like a big family who are all brought together by their music.

LISTEN:
I wish people could really listen to eachother, even if they don't agree with the other person, even if they don't like it; just listen, and really hear what they're saying. Listening means more than just registering the sound of someone's voice in your ears. Don't judge them because they're different, don't argue because you don't agree. Try to understand that their reasons for believing and feeling as they do are just as valid as yours, and that they feel just as strongly as you do. Understand what they're saying; it doesn't mean you have to agree. Ask them to do the same for you. It may not change the way either person feels, but you just might change someone's mind, or maybe you'll be surprised and change your own. Even if you both keep your opinions, at least you will understand and respect eachother. The world could be a much nicer place if people could do this simple thing for eachother.

OH YEAH AND I LOVE GLENN DANZIG!!! He is an absolute GOD of punk and metal! He has the MOST amazing voice! I worship him! And I would DIE to fuck him!!!