i was not always like this. i dont know when it started. when i was a kid my mother made me wear a pair of leather school shoes with pointed toes ,i hated them. they were an embarrassment, all the other kids had trainers, i remember trying to explain to my mum that the shoes were too 'posh'. she wouldn't listen, so one day on my way home from school i took them off and threw them into the river. i told my mum they had been stolen. she spanked my arse.